Let's Take Part II First, Shall We?
Human emotions befuddle me. Maybe it’s just my own emotions, but I’d like to share the confusion with all of my species. Emotions make no sense, and yet they hold our mortal mini-universe together. They tie us to one another and divide us asunder. They split our sides with laughter and break our hearts into tiny shards. They are manageable, but never truly controllable; as soon as we stifle one emotion it just pops up in another way, generally messier and more virulent than if we had just dealt with it in its pre-gremlin form. The passage of time often softens the edges of emotions, and hopefully that will be the case today, affording more clarity and less drama to my words. A month ago, John had a heart attack. I’ve been trying to write about it nearly all this time – when I haven’t been taking walks with him or cooking for him, or running errands or trying to pretend that life hasn’t kind of changed around here. He’s fine. As a matter of fact, if you want to know all th